Joining the Dark Brotherhood marked a significant turning
point for Katnys; although she felt a deep sisterhood with Jenassa, she hadn’t
experienced a real family since the Empire abandoned the Evyrdenes to the
Thalmor’s tender mercies. The presence
of a Dunmer and a Redguard in their ranks didn’t hurt, either. While her interest in the Brotherhood started
with daydreams of assassinating Imperial officials, she quickly realized that this
family was going to help her heal one of her deepest wounds.
Therefore, when Nazir offered Katnys her first contracts,
she was genuinely conflicted. Until now,
she had not killed anyone in whom she wasn't personally "invested." Slaughtering legionaries and Thalmor was a joy, and killing bandits was an act of self-preservation; even at Pinewatch, her preemptive strike, while brutal, was born out of fear. Sticking Grelod while she was as helpless as the kids she tormented -- well, that just plain felt good. And Vasha...if half of what he said was true, then he deserved his end.
But if Katnys was being honest with herself, she had to admit that there was something...liberating about killing on Astrid's orders. Ever since her parents died, Katnys had shouldered the burden of taking care of herself and her sister. She made every decision -- leaving the orphanage, finding the Alik'r, going back to Windhelm. It was that last decision that led to Prym's death. She was ready to let someone else make the decisions for a while. And now that the "someone else" was a Redguard who dressed and behaved just enough like an Alik'r, she could find a way to do anything that he asked.
Still, the first three contracts Nazir gave her were hard to stomach. True, these targets were nothing to her, but killing a random mine boss, a paranoid ex-miller, and a grief-deranged beggar without knowing the reason was going to be tough. It was clear that she wasn't going to get explanations; she was going to have to trust her new family and do as they asked.
Katnys decided to start with the hardest one: Narfi. Though she didn't encounter him when she passed through Ivarstead on her way to High Hrothgar, she had heard a few rumors about the simpleton who was searching for his sister, who had either abandoned him, died, or both. With her gone, he was probably better off dead anyway. Katnys decided that a quick bowshot from a distance would be the most humane exit for this poor bastard.
After Narfi, Ennodius Papius was not as difficult. While not as pathetic as Narfi, Papius was just as miserable, endlessly jumping at shadows. Killing him seemed almost merciful.
Beitild came last, and was the easiest target. The business between her and her husband seemed like it was going to end in bloodshed anyway. Killing her probably prevented innocent people from getting caught in the crossfire.
After she returned to the Sanctuary, Katnys collected her reward from the sardonic Redguard, then took some time to think. Murder was becoming easier to justify with each contract, and she needed to decide if this was a good thing.
But if Katnys was being honest with herself, she had to admit that there was something...liberating about killing on Astrid's orders. Ever since her parents died, Katnys had shouldered the burden of taking care of herself and her sister. She made every decision -- leaving the orphanage, finding the Alik'r, going back to Windhelm. It was that last decision that led to Prym's death. She was ready to let someone else make the decisions for a while. And now that the "someone else" was a Redguard who dressed and behaved just enough like an Alik'r, she could find a way to do anything that he asked.
Still, the first three contracts Nazir gave her were hard to stomach. True, these targets were nothing to her, but killing a random mine boss, a paranoid ex-miller, and a grief-deranged beggar without knowing the reason was going to be tough. It was clear that she wasn't going to get explanations; she was going to have to trust her new family and do as they asked.
Katnys decided to start with the hardest one: Narfi. Though she didn't encounter him when she passed through Ivarstead on her way to High Hrothgar, she had heard a few rumors about the simpleton who was searching for his sister, who had either abandoned him, died, or both. With her gone, he was probably better off dead anyway. Katnys decided that a quick bowshot from a distance would be the most humane exit for this poor bastard.
After Narfi, Ennodius Papius was not as difficult. While not as pathetic as Narfi, Papius was just as miserable, endlessly jumping at shadows. Killing him seemed almost merciful.
Beitild came last, and was the easiest target. The business between her and her husband seemed like it was going to end in bloodshed anyway. Killing her probably prevented innocent people from getting caught in the crossfire.
After she returned to the Sanctuary, Katnys collected her reward from the sardonic Redguard, then took some time to think. Murder was becoming easier to justify with each contract, and she needed to decide if this was a good thing.
Awesome bud, keep it up.
ReplyDeleteOn a side note, I'd just like to say I miss Skyrim's popularity days.
I know what you mean, but it is also true that the passage of time means that the only folks still talking about Skyrim are the ones who take it seriously.
DeleteI like how Katnys starts to justify everything she does for the DB in her mind.
ReplyDeleteThat's the particular "puzzle" of this playthrough. I was looking for a way to construct a character who could see joining the Dark Brotherhood as a legitimate moral option. They accept her, they trust her, and they represent an avenue for the revenge she seeks -- it's natural for her to find a way to justify the things she has to do for them. After all, this kind of thing happens in real life as well; plenty of people are able to morally justify doing otherwise immoral things in order to benefit their own family (biological or otherwise).
DeleteI'm assuming these are vanilla playthroughs? Would you consider doing a third playthrough using quest mods? For example, there's a mod that adds an alternate ending to the House of Horror s mod where you help the cultist escape.
ReplyDeleteYou assume correctly. As a filthy console peasant, I am limited to the game as Bethesda created it. As I've mentioned in previous posts, however, I enjoy these limitations as a way of exploring true Kohlbergian dilemmas -- i.e., the problem of making a moral decision when none of the choices are good. How do you do good when all of your options are bad?
DeleteI keep this one short and quick. Two things I want to tell and ask you:
ReplyDelete1. I really like your blog.
2. Why do you called yourself a "filthy console peasant" when replying to the PC users when they mentioned about mods? As a console owner myself, this really pissed me off. I don't want to start a flame war, but I just need your explanation for calling yourself (and other console owners indirectly) as peasant.
It's used derogatorily by some PC users, Door, but there are people (like some console users) who simply use the term very tongue in cheek; I genuinely believe that no disrespect was intended.
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